Category Archives: Depression

A Battle I May Lose

Posted on November 10, 2014 by beckikeyevents

Posted in Depression, Domestic Violence, PTSD | Tagged Deptession | 26 Comments

The Thief Has Returned

Posted on August 28, 2014 by beckikeyevents

The thief has once again arrived and is attempting to steal my soul. All I can take solace in at the moment is I know I am not alone. Ive attempted three times since Monday to blog about this, each … Continue reading →

Posted in Depression, Suicide | Tagged chronic pain, depression, living with PTSD, suicide | 33 Comments

I know It’s Hard To Believe

Posted on February 24, 2014 by beckikeyevents

I originally was going to write a post about something entirely different. But this morning I thought I would share about my project today. I am finishing a Bible study on Job. Ronnie and I have not yet left to … Continue reading →

Posted in becki duckworth, Child Abuse, Depression, gift of love, Give without expectations, hardened Hearts, hope, Spiritual quest | Tagged Arizona, Becki is reading the bible, close friendships, domestic volence, Give from your heart, Help others unconditionally, soul searching, The book of Job | 16 Comments

Wow 5 Years Already

Posted on August 26, 2013 by beckikeyevents

Does not seem possible that he has been gone that long. I feel his spirit sitting in his chair at the desk he crafted….. RIP BIG DUCK.. My favorite picture of Kevin below

Posted in Depression, Domestic Violence, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, estranged fathers, Family Secrets, Mental Health, NBA, Uncategorized | Tagged brother, death, Duck 00, duckworths, eastern illinois university, love, Portland Oregon, Portland Trailblazers, professional basketball, Ronnie Duckworth | 2 Comments

Finally I Am Going To Talk Cake

Posted on August 2, 2013 by beckikeyevents

I hate cake, not just any cake, but birthday cake. Maybe I should clarify… I hate birthday cake for my birthday. Baking and making a cake is a labor of love. When my children were young, at least a week … Continue reading →

Posted in beaten by mother, Birthdays, Child Abuse, daughters, Depression, Domestic Violence, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, gift of love, Traumatic Experiences | Tagged birthday cake, childhood memories, jan meier plano illinois, Janice delp, janice mary meier, janice mary meier plano illinois, marc meier naperville illinois | 21 Comments

It’s Just A Funk !!

Posted on July 28, 2013 by beckikeyevents

Sooooo… I have not checked my blog for 6 days.. That’s a first since I started my blog back in October. In fact it’s also been several day’s since I even checked my email account. I have been in a … Continue reading →

Posted in Child Abuse, Depression, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, Healing and Recovery, PTSD, Toxic Relationships | Tagged birthdays, blogging, cancer, depression, friends, hope | 17 Comments

He’s Perfect, and I Miss Him

Posted on May 24, 2013 by beckikeyevents

I am really opening myself up with this post. The past few day’s my heart has been heavy. I miss my Grandson Anthony. It’s best for me to write about it and not stuff my feelings. My Grandson Anthony’s Mother is … Continue reading →

Posted in Depression, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, Grandchildren, Open adoption | Tagged Alison Rodgers, broken heart, grandson, missing grandchild, toxic relationships | 30 Comments

Pardon Me For Killing You

Posted on May 16, 2013 by beckikeyevents

Quite a few years ago and after I was stabbed, I served on a Board Of Director’s as the Chair Person Of Fundraising for a Domestic Violence Resource Center. I also worked tirelessly on a campaign for a friend and … Continue reading →

Posted in Child Abuse, Depression, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, google, narcissist, prison, PTSD, Traumatic Experiences | Tagged child abuse, jan meier plano illinois, Janice Meier, janice meier plano illinois, justifiable homicide, life after child abuse, pardons for women in prison | 22 Comments

Conclusion Of Homeless In San Francisco

Posted on April 4, 2013 by beckikeyevents

I woke up in my recliner with the vacuum attachments on my side. It was early morning and sperm donor had not returned. I made some tea and sat by the phone contemplating calling my Great Aunt, but I could … Continue reading →

Posted in Adoption, Depression, Domestic Violence, drug addiction, Dysfunctional Family Relationships, Family Secrets, Mental Health, narcissist, OCD, Toxic Relationships | Tagged abusive relationship, Anthony Duckworth, anthony walker, cocaine addiction, court battles, custody, domestic violence, drug abuse, homeless | 6 Comments

Homeless In San Francisco (Part Two)

Posted on April 3, 2013 by beckikeyevents

I did as sperm donor told me and got into Al’s car. Sperm donor asked me what was in the bag I was carrying. I told him,” Just some things from my desk.” He looked in my bag and saw … Continue reading →