Category Archives: Family Secrets

Remembering

Recently a former classmate of mine posted our kindergarten class photo on facebook. The only photo’s I have of my childhood are a few that my Aunt sent me. Immediately upon seeing the kindergarten class photo I tried to identify … Continue reading

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Full Disclosure

I can’t change the past but the past has changed me. Matthew West wrote a song titled, “My Name Is.” In his lyrics there is a great phrase, “I am no longer defined by the wreckage behind.” This week I … Continue reading

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What It’s Like

Today while I was sitting in a very plush waiting room of my Orthopedic Surgeon’s office, there was a teenage girl and her mother sitting across from me. The girl was reading an article in a magazine and turned to … Continue reading

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The Rape Story

Warning : This post may be a trigger for anyone who has been raped. Sperm Donor¬†(SD) and I decided to move into a small apartment with his Great Aunt in the early spring of 1984. I was employed at a … Continue reading

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For The Hundredth Time !

Generally when the phrase, ” For The Hundredth Time” is used a negative comment follows. Have you heard this phrase? I also am guilty of using it negatively. Today’s post is the big.. ONE, ZERO, ZERO for me. Yep, for … Continue reading

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Handwritten Letters

Handwritten letters are a rare commodity, they indicate investment. Email is “permanent” in its own way. Our electronic messages are easy to keep and to search in huge volumes. But emails are not tangible and enduring in the same way … Continue reading

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I like October, I like October… Who Am I trying To Fool? I Hate October!

It’s raining and gloomy here in Oregon. Today also is the first day of National Domestic Violence Awareness Month. October is also the anniversary of when I was stabbed. My wonderful husband, and soul mate’s birthday is in October. My … Continue reading

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Finding My Family

I would like to introduce my birth daughter Abby. I asked Abby to be a guest writer on my blog.¬†She has evolved into a wonderful mother and a successful woman. Abby was adopted at birth by two very loving caring … Continue reading

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Trucks And A Mask

Frustration is the feeling for this Friday the 13th of September. I woke to the sounds of dump trucks heading to the top of our hill. Dump trucks, log trucks, water trucks have taken over our peaceful neighborhood for almost … Continue reading

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Relentlessly Brainwashed

Therapy has been very productive lately. I am connecting with my new therapist Carol and she is very well versed with PTSD patients. My therapy sessions are weekly, and I feel Carol now has a good sense of who I … Continue reading

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